ana and mama n teman-teman...

بسمـ الله الرحمن الرحيمـ

Assalamualikum...
 haih...nak mengeluh??? tak elok la.. tapi kan apalah hidup aku, nak rasa hidup macam orang lain jugak tapi.. kenapa lah aku yang kene jadi lain daripada orang lain..??? Don't ask me about... What kind of life do you expected to be...??? bukan itu yang aku maksudkan..just when i am really saw people implored for help..not implore maybe just ask...implore is too much though...

   mama : Ana, mama sakit, could you please look after your siblings??
        and i just prentend like nothing is important...just pretend..really mean "it", but the the things is... can i just say..
 
me : ma, jangan risau, Ana akan tolong..

almost all the tyme lorh... mama cakap jangan buat itu, jangan buat ini...kalau x buat tak tahu, i just akan tikam lidah..its not ready to fight..just bangkang saja, but why...kalau ngan orang lain...sng saja nak cakap those valuable words huh..? suppose to be ngan mama i am be a better person ever... betul punye dissappointed about myself...

sebenarnya, i just x ske jadi orang yang ego..for myself, tak pernah nmpak mana baiknya..yeah..ada, tapi mostly..nothing...

kalau orang tegur apa2 pown, aku akan lawan..tahu la..mmg x elok..kecuali kalau orang tu kawan rapat aku, tapi Alhamdulillah... bila nak tidur malam-malam...aku slalu akan fikir balik apa-apa yang orang lain tegur..walaupun bunyinya like :

 :::: alah..macam awak tueh bagus sangat ::::
 :::: aku terima aje apa-apa yang berlaku/ yang Allah bagi kat aku (else kite kne berusaha dlu) ::::
 :::: malaslah..benda remeh temeh aje tueh...lain kali lah ::::
 
atau beberapa lagi ayat yang memang takkan pernah indah untuk masuk dalam lubang telinga and hentak2 korunk punye eardrum... ap lagi nak masuk dalam otak and disimpan untuk jangke mase yang tah bile la (kalo dendam tueh...sgt lama mungkin...)

supposed to be dengar aje n amek nasihat orang..itulah yang berlaku... and menda paling tak best...jarang antara kawan2 yang menegur aku kecuali ex-pandan jaya...budak maktab memang jarang skali kalau nak tegur aku...kalau ada pown...SYAZANA SHAHDAN / EFFA SHARMIZA / BELLA / (beloved roommate '09) kalau yg 'o8 tak pown..sooorrryy guys..tapi...hmmm...sbb pown roommate '08 maslah sket...
kalau yang lain plak thanks kat ZAHIDAH / AZIRA / IRA / P-ka (kak long..!!! p/s x pnh pown ak pnggil die mcm tueh, even sme org pnggil ngan name tue) yang lain2...mgkin x brani..tapi tak p owh...
cme bagi ak nasihat seorang kawan tue mmg something yang sgt....(infinity) valuable...


so..insya-Allah Ana azam nak ubah..but first and foremost...mama la...i love you lah..just i'm the only of your children yang mmg ssh nk bwat mcm tueh..kwn2 yg pnh nmpak ckp
 ::::oatai la kao ngan mak kao..mcm member je... :::::

Narrated Abu Huraira: A man came to Allah's Apostle and said, "O Allah's Apostle! Who is more entitled to be treated with the best companionship by me?" The Prophet said, "Your mother." The man said. "Who is next?" The Prophet said, "Your mother." The man further said, "Who is next?" The Prophet said, "Your mother." The man asked for the fourth time, "Who is next?" The Prophet said, "Your father. "

 Narrated Asma' bint Abu Bakr: My mother came to me, hoping (for my favor) during the lifetime of the Prophet asked the Prophet, "May I treat her kindly?" He replied, "Yes." Ibn 'Uyaina said, "Then Allah revealed: 'Allah forbids you not with regards to those who fought not against you because of religion, and drove you not out from your homes, that you should show them kindness and deal justly with them.'.......(60.8)

wassalam..