merapek~

Taknak BISING lagi boleh?
Tapi itu cara untuk SEMBUNYI sebenarnya.

Taknak KACAU orang lagi?
Tapi itu cara aku BERKAWAN.

Taknak MERNAGIS lagi?
Tapi ada orang kesah? Haha

Taknak SAKITKAN HATI orang lagi?
Tapi tak tahu macam mana.

Taknak MALAS lagi?
Tiada TAPI untuk ini.

Taknak BERPALING lagi?
Sedang cubalah. Insyaallah TIDAK.

Taknak TERLALU percaya?
Tapi itu yang MEREKA harapkan.

Tapi tapi tapi.
Takkan pernah berhenti BERHARAP dan MEMINTA dalam keadaan yang sebaik-baiknya.
Aku HARAP...
aku mampu buat
aku mampu bertahan
aku mampu diam
aku mampu melepaskan
aku mampu berhenti
dan aku mampu LEBIH KUAT :))

p/s penat.ditinggalkan. tapi biasalah :)

salam:)
food for free and x sempat ambil drinks.
Attends the VC's ucaptama. Well, depends. I choose to hear so that when I give a talk people would hear me. Life is circle. What you treat people today, one day that is what you'll get.

VC cakap, manusia ni kalau berita buruk lagi cepat tersebar. Haha, I prove to you sir! For you kind if best. I like the way he talk about Islam in your every speech.

And 9 things you said at the end of your speech.
Antara yang ingat:
 *manusia dikurniakan AKAL oleh Allah tetapi tidak menggunakannya untuk memikirkan soal agama
 *MENCINTAI Allah lebih drpd kita cintai MANUSIA tak kiralah, mak ayah or husband or kekasih hati anda. One day mereka akan pergi tinggalkan anda. But Allah always with you.
 *tubuh badan yang sihat tp x beribadah
 *mampu banyak duit tp x tlg org susah

:p ingat yang ni je. But at least I get something. Tak sia-sia :))

Mumble but what do I feel :)

What am I done to me?
I need someone to guide me. Not to ruin my own self.
Not being ungrateful just about time. I have a lot of commitment in life. Plus, I have decided that it is my life. Are they gonna be there if I am stuck in the middle of conflicts of life? They can't make a word for that. Plus if they do make word for that I still have to tell myself they would not. Not because they are selfish, indeed they are doing their own commitments. So they are not intended to do so. Forgive them for the future.

Ana, again. Protect yourself and the purity of Islam. You have big responsibility to people around you. Love yourself first then you can love people around you. Love them because of Allah. Because Allah ask us to be so loving to each other. I am about too. But then don't let until Allah is your second one. Islam is my way. Insya-Allah, I would never be so desperate until I have to mortgage my Islam. Never.

I am always hope that I never be in wrong path. Islam never say it is wrong. Just maybe the way I take it so wrong. I hope I can have You forever. I pray for it. Allah knows what is best for me. And insya-Allah for him too.
"La ikro hafiddin..."
May Allah bless you, dear.
Thank you very for making my day even happier. Even sometimes we used to fight over nothing and I am being so jealousy. But I love you and grateful to have you in life. Even IF the fact one day, we have to be apart (which I hope never happen). at least for some other time, I am happy that Allah once sent You to me. Alhamdulillah.
Amin.
Assalamualaikum.

Alone

I just really wanted to be alone sometimes.

That is it.

Oooohooohooo,,why are we always fight over nothing? I wondered. But that is the beauty of life.

I used to say this. 

"Korang tau tak,, orang yg tengah bercintan nih, weh,,tanda seru pun boley jadi punca gaduh."

Hahaha. What is that all about? Whatever lah!

I need time to motivated myself. It has been 4 months I am here in Perlis. Is it something that I have done that would make people esp. my family proud of me? Are there? I need to think about it back. My relationship with the Creator, The Almighty Allah, family, with YOU, my roommates, coursemate, and my all know(s).

I have bad feeling of my drastically change here, but always pray that I never cross the limit that Islam has made for me. Because I love my religion, myself, my family, and YOU. I don't want to ruin any of it.

Allah bless us.

I am really hope that people could correct me. But only my family could do that.I might condemn but I'll consider it if it good for me and people around not if just to make me down.

Farewell.

Assalamualaikum.

:Stucked :

Salam:)
Really, what a lovely morning. Wahaaa~ morning? Ok still can be considered. Now still xx:xx when I started to write this. I am awake already after about more than 8 hours being like teddy on bed. Ahaha,, previously as I was about a Matriculation student, I used to sleep late just because of assignments and study. Not more than that. Today? Hahaha. Life is unexpected. Tak kesah la. Actually last night a bit late  because I accompany my dearest roommate study. Hahaha,, But then still can't afford to stay any longer. Cannot stand dear. So early this morning, I can see she wake up, and get prepared for her ETHNICS paper today. Good luck, sayang. My doa with you. But this not exactly what am I gonna mumble here. It about people around me.

You guys sometimes make me sick. I know I am neither perfect. Far away to be, kan Ana? T__T
But Allah have granted me with people whom also always be with me no matter what happen. Insya-Allah.
I have mama, baba, abang, and siblings, bestest friend ever, and still have YOU too. I don't care how people judge me. And if you brave enough, talk about it face to face. I have no doubt about you are going to condemn me. In fact, I am being very grateful, people.

I am no hear about everything so much, I have no see what are exactly face they wanna make to me, I am no hurt about what they gonna talk bad about me, but I knew. Because, well hellloooo~ I am also a part of society, so I knew.

Then people might ask, "If you knew already why you still being so stubborn?"
"Errrkkk...Guys,,,if I am doing something wrong, correct me, not condemn me, ok?"

And for some other reason,
"Allah tak jadikan sesustu tanpa sebab, kan?"

Ok, I'll try to flow with the stream. May Allah protects me.
*What ever I do, I have my own principle in life. I have Islam to bring along. I have Allah whom watch me for whatever I do."
Alhamdulillah :))

Probelem is my bestest friend?

Salam.
"Kau yang pilih jalan tu
n kau kene pandai handle masalah tu"

Dah betul sangat dah tu, Farhana Azman.

Kan aku yang cari pasal. Itulah orang kata, buat tak pakai otak? Betul k? Bukan, tapi tak matang dalam membuat keputusan. Apa-apa pun, aku akan buat macam biasa sahaja. Mungkin aku saja yang terlalu memikirkan. Ohh,, well,, hanya mereka yang terhampir sahaja yang memahami keadaan diri ku ini. Alhamdulillah bila ada orang yang sanggup mendengar. Alahamdulillah. Sungguh, Allah itu Maha Pemurah lagi Maha penyayang, di saat aku memerlukan teman di sini, tatkala jauh dari keluarga, aku punya kamu, sahabat. Yang sanggup luangkan masa bersama ku. Sekurang-kurangnya mendengar apa-apa yang ingin aku bicarakan. Bukan bila aku nak berkongsi, time tu la tengah taip mesej kau. Nvm, maybe u text ur mom?or dad? or ur FUTURE husband? Really. I am the positive thinker. Sort of lying!

Thx kepada mereka yang sangat sudi mendengar. Semoga Allah gantikan masa kalian dengan sesuatu yang lebih baik. InsyaAllah. Allah Maha Pemurah. Kalian. Terlalu thx. Before tiz, I always lost on track when I need someone to tell even a tale, but now. Alhamdulillah. 

Dedicated to:panties,adah,azira.

Sayang kalian kerana Allah. Semoga apa-apa yang kalian lakukan mendapat keberkatan illahi :)

Ameen~

They are...

Salam,
Hari ini. Saya tiada mood untuk mengarang dalam bahasa asing. Tetapi. entah. Who knows babe.
Here at UniMAP, I have one crazy friend. She is very gila2 one. Weiyhhh, Far, sedar tak English kau actually become broken alreday. Yeah. All this sbb Chau Woon Kit. Hahaha, nothing dear. Sorry. No matter what you are, you are still the best of you. I love you the way you are.

 Yang tengah mengeliat, dia la tu~~

 ohh,, ini Fatin coursemate saya.

 She is YAYA

 I like this one

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..

...

....

TETTTTT...

Actually, I just get along with my sayang one. We have some fight about something stupid. But yeah, very big deal actually. I am really sorry. Tapi my Kit say, he din like me always say sorry to everyone. And at time I say sorry to him. He says that I am not truly sorry. So I learn that. Please show that when you are really determinates to do that. I am really sorry that I have dissapointed you. And now, we are even better than before. And I am still guilty towards you, sayang. Really sorry.

We never know what tomorrow holds,
but don't be afraid or doubt anything-
because the one who took care of you today,
holds your tomorrow as well!

We are complicated.

And I hope one day you are really different from what you are now.

I wish I dont have to lose you.

But future have better plan for us.

ILYSM

<3

INEEDMOTIVATION:)

.....There is no wrong for being where I stand here today,
There is no wrong for standing where YOU are are today,
But I do admit, I hate the path I've chosen years back.
But somehow:

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.

 

I believe there is something for me. I have fun for being here. I have friends whom trusted me. I have lecturers whom help me out a lot. I have my family a 558 km away from here. 

most and foremost. I have Allah whom NEAR by no distance from me. 

I am no regret of the path I've taken today. If I disappointed, I have no time to move forward. 

Like my friend used to say;

"Those whom come out first from the hall ain't genius. And those whom being the last one to pass the paper ain't that dummy. They are both the same."

p/s Some how, I turned out to be the first Malay during Math test because we wanna pee. That is it. Not because we can answered very well.

 

Daily Note 2 (UniMAP)

Assalamualaikum:)

Well, I am very great in condition because there is a class that should be ended by 12 noon but last only for 2 hours from 8 am. How wonderful it is, right? But the most and foremost important thing happened. And I wish I don't have to feel that kind of feeling towards a friend. Well, XXX I still consider you as a friend even if you are not so. What I am feeling right now is want to make a punch ! Duuuiiishhh!!! Just one actually.

I am not sure if that person by XXX is not ease at me. But please! Am no disturbing your life why would you. At first, even if I have a bad first impression about that person but I try to ignore but suddenly the thought flying back to my head. It is getting bigger and even bigger.

Well, I always remember what my mom used to say;
"Do not hate people because the are bad. Hate the attitude and do not duplicate it inside yours."
Even I am hurt. Positively thinking!

I love all my friends. Hard feeling no more! I hate when I have to hate people.
"Oh Allah do make me feel at ease back. He didn't make any wrong. Maybe it is true I am the one whom done wrong. Oh Allah the most Mercifu and The Forvigen.Ameen."

So next class at 4pm. In progress for my tutorial:)

Currently UniMAP

 Left side; Kak Intan. Her character just like a sister that I dream for whole life long. Well, suka bebel sikit tapi quite okay.

 Left side; Her name actually Solehah Ainul but I rather called her by Saffura Alias. People kept asking why and I just answered "For fun!"

 Foremost left side: She used to be my ex-maktab mate but thing is, I never talk to her in past. And now here she is as my roomy.

 Well all of us before something that is called "SUKSIS" separate us. LOL. No actually all of us involved. Except now the right one, Shida she's enemy! Lolz.

 My beloved housemate whom love to 'berangan'. We called her "the ghost of mirror". Serve her right though.

The end of happy life. Dead!

Salam:)

UniMap (Style gileeerrr!)

 

Ahaks, ain't it nice? To see other's chest? For me, it ain't that nice. Especially when what is shown to me is from my friend. This morning after long period of 4 hours lecture (especially ekt101 yang tak paham) seorang kawan yang lebih mesra dengan YAYA told me

"Far, xxx tak button up baju dia"

Oh my Allah, to make me feel ease for awhile can be considered but as I realized that he is a friend of mine, I wish I never have to watch such a show. It makes me felt even burdened deep inside.

Okaylah kan, orang akan cakap rezeki. Bagi aku rezeki memeang rezeki. Tapi kalau nampak kawan sendiri punya dada, ain't it macam dah lain. Okaylah, aku memang selalu sangat berpeluang nampak benda-benda ceng gini. Bored.

Bak kata certain manusia pula, kalau cantik best la, macam contoh badan dia putih melepak, orang tak berbulu macam Darwin.Hahahaha

Tapi aku tetap dengan pendirian aku kalau kawan aku, especially yang bertentangan jantina, I never wish to seek any other than what they wear. Nomatter berapa cantik atau berapa putih tahap keputihan dia. Hahaha, so guys next time tak payah susah susah lah nak pakai sexy sangat kan, espicially you all kan nak pergi kuliah, or tepat lagi belajar. (Rasa macam nak tegur je, tapi biasa lah, ingat kawan aku tu tak de feeling ka?:p)

 Second case is orang yang pakai kasut tanpa stokin just nak cakap, 

"Style mana eh?"

Ak tau kalau dalam drama2 korea yang sume orang dok gila nak mati tu memang ceng gitu, tapi kan, ain't it macam sakai. Especially ngan kaki seluar lipat sampai buku lali. Oh my....

Malas la nak mengkuman kan, aku pun bukan bagus sangat, 

sakai je pakaian aku ke kelas but at least aku tak ke kelas ngan selipar jamban!

ha,,, macam ni lah,

Tapi kan, tapi kan, kalau korang perasan la, yang taste pesen g kelas ngan selipar (walaupun nampak mahal,) tetap selipar, ramainya kat Malaysia ni orang melayu je, mana ada (ya, tapi sikit sangat sampai nak buka jari un susah) budak cina, ke ibdia ke, kadazan ke, bajau ke, International (apatah lagi) yang pakai macam tu. Sungguh la macam dah teruk sangat or else. Bukan nak kutuk bangsa sendiri tapi semua ini hanya kerana aku sedikit malu ngan bangsa sendiri. Again aku pun bukan bagus sangat. Malas je. Always procrastinating.

"Korunk bgn lambat ke tadi?"

--> "mana ada, awal la, "

"Oh okayyy, awal sangat tu, mesti kau x perasan kau terpakai seliper kan?"

oklah, no hard feeling kayh?Just open thought:)

salam:))

Daily Note 1 (unimap)

Salam,
Wuhuuu, I am very tired not tired actually just sleep for almost one hour from the noon. Waiting for maghrib prayer actually. Great. At last my puasa 6 will be end for this year. Just left the puasa ganti. Well only 4 meh. Not many right? Proud of being myself. But a usual, I will make it double. But do not know when am I gonna do those.

Right now I wondered why can "those" understand other than their mother tongue? Please be convenient. I speak Malay (national language), they do not understand. I speak English also making that blurring face. Then what? Both are the common language here. Do not expect me to speak Mandarin or Cantonese or Tamil right? Obviously I do not know how. I neither went for Chinese school nor Tamil school. The important of those two language seems very important. Otherwise the communication become nothing except "huh?", "do get what i'm saying?". Da~ I can be very open minded person but right now I admitted that I am hungry so a bit emotional. But once my Civic's teacher said, "Do not let your emotion controls yourself.". Exactly what I quote.

As just now also, I have chatting with old friend. A foreigner. It is not like I do not believe him. Just beware. Then slight fight. And get back to where we were at. Huh, life is not that as simple as ABC. It is as complicated as 123 and making the pseudo code (programming). I said complicated not hard. If and only if we can think very wisely then we can succeed. Can't wait to be one of those success people with strong faith in Allah and strong iman wherever I be.

Yeay also. Sir, please upload the tutorial and assignment very soon. Can't wait for those. Eager to feed more to my brain. And challenge it.  The studies still running through my head. Still fresh.

*To myself, do not ever again felt very sleepy in lecture. Seriously madam gives the quiz. And thank to Allah (Alhamdulillah) still something that enter the head. Foremost that the questions given the part that I bout to give attention. Too grateful even not all the point are "printf" on the paper. So far so good. So far so smooth for my studies. May Allah make it more easier for me and the rest of my course-mates.
May Allah bless us.Amin.

p/s going to grab the towel.
Assalamualaikum:)