PENGHARGAAN

Belum ada benda yang cukup membahagiakan aku dalam hidup.
Salah satu puncanya, aku terlalu memikirkan semua masalah itu berpunca daripada aku.
Mungkin tidak.

Ok. Ini sudah sangat tension. yes! Aku lupa, bagi aku benda yang paling bahagia dalam hidup aku yang pernah terjadi ialah bila mana aku mampu berbaik dengan mama and less bertengkar. Anak derhaka. Suka hati orang la apa nak cakap. Yang tahu keadaan sebenar hanya Allah.

But seyesly, aku memang ada masalah dengan orang-orang yang aku SAYANG.
Mungkin sebab aku rasa diorang selalu AKAN ADA dekat ngan aku, jadi makanya, aku kurang menghargai mereka. Tapi hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa rasa bersalah bilamana hanya sekecil kuman aku menyakiti mereka.
Tapi sedihnya, orang yang aku benar benar sayang tak ramai. Anyhow, mestilah FAMILY aku, GEMOK, n ONLY BESTFRIEND.

Aku sayang mereka kerana mereka ialah cebisan manusia yang mampu menegur aku. And truth is. Insan insan ini sahaja yang mampu buat aku jadi TERLALU BUNTU and BAZIR air mata sebab diorang.
KEJAM kan?

Tapi juga. Life aku bermakna dengan adanya mereka.
Kalau aku diberi peluang usap usap teko ajaib Jin ala-ala Aladdin uh, aku nak mintak untuk masih bersama mereka ini sehingga di Syurga. Insya-Allah.

Tapi bila difikrkan balik, 3 kategori manuaisa ini ialah insan yang paling kerap aku bertengkar. SESUAI.
Kalau orang lain, saat tergelak hilai tawa adalah paling bEST, begitu juga aku, Tapi aku lagi suka benda benda yang kekadang menyakitkan hati. Bagi aku, itu lagi membuatkan kami rapat dan lebih mengenali.

Kadang kadang terlalu bahagia itu, HIPOKRIT.
Sebab itu, aku tak suka orang yang suka tabur janji manis. SWEET TALKER.
Aku lagi suka benda yang menyakitkan hati tapi JJUJUR sebenarnya. IKELAS.

#sakitdantaktahan
#gtg

Asssalamualaikum.

Always be

Summer after high school when we first metWe make out in your Mustang to RadioheadAnd on my 18th BirthdayWe got matching tattoos
Used to steal your parents' liquorAnd climb to the roofTalk about our futureLike we had a clueNever planned that one dayI'd be losing you

Currently, this is favourite one. Even the ringtone I am using it. What a funny one. 

I'm just into the lyrics about friendship, the "I've lost" and the "I still have". Depends on individu. Others around me considered this song for the broken heart, but as for me, no nedd jiwang jiwang okayh? Haha a bit, but now out of the story. I miss them. So sudden. 

I go to school eversince standard 1, kindergarten not count. But during my years from Form 1 till Form was the best ever. I am not a boarding school's student yet at that time. Just daily governments school. But I have been enjoyed the life. 

Wake up early in the morning, walk to school for 2 Km something. But it was fun. And even sometimes bumped into some friends. Ride on her bicycle together. That just very sweet moments.

If bumped with the guys, I ran away. Haha act like shy but I dunno actually. Come to think of it, am I supposed to feel shy even with my classmates? But its me. 

And also during this 3 years period, I have just GOOD memoirs about something that I never wanted to back to me. Yeah, now we are friend instead.

And remembered,  when few guys want walk home with me. But this one I remembered most.

"Farhana, "F" nak jalan balik ngan kau skali."

I just smiled and straight back home. Let them be. 

Tapi, Hanya Allah yang tahu. Deep inside.

"Boleh tak kau blah skarang? Rimas. Aku tak suka macam ni."

Kind of weird. Tapi sebabkan rumah kami beza lorong je. Redha je lah. Now, when we both make up the story back. We both laughed.

 Girls

 Guys

We :))

Second, go to Maktab's life. Nothing special here except weird people. And I learned a lot about Islam. 

I have found my best friend here. But f1-f3 still the best ever.

I have hard time being here for 6 months early. I wanted to go out. But I know my parents would never agree. So I kept it inside. I never success with that. But somehow I learned something here.

I miss MRSM Kuantan. Even not the school. I miss Bandar Kuantan. I wish to go there. 

Even we called it "bandar", we have pantai there. So nice. There coldness like winter. 

Subhanallah I miss it.

 Form 5 classmates

 Form 4's

hrmmm...

Next is Matriculation. 

Here, I changed a bit. Less talk, less noise. Sit in front of table. But still enjoy life here.

But langit tak selalu cerah, kita harap panas sampai ke petang, tapi hujan turun. Tapi hujan itu bukan lah teruk sgt, Allah nak bagi pelangi :)

Second semester ruined everything. I never expect I would ever do that in life. But things happens for reasons.

Haha, the funny part is, Kafe B. I miss it. Not the food. But the "the". 

 classmates 

 last day

I am the last one check out at my aras.

And now. Here I am today. Perlis. 

No exact group I join. I ahve my friend, Yaya. We just move together. I don't like grouping. Doesn't matter if I don't get the latest gossip(s). 

Grouping weird. We have the Group BUDAK KECIK, Group "apetah" n Group chinese.

My class not even 50 r maybe 40, but have this many groups? Kind of weird. So whenever any invitation by any group, I won't join. Unless we are unite.

They are not my classmate. They are SUKSIS. no grouping. We are ONE even we are 65 of us. But this just small group during the orientation.

I am not choose my friend

I just being friendly with all

I am not finding best friend(s)

They come to me as the time is right

till then, Wsalam :)

:Stucked :

Salam:)
Really, what a lovely morning. Wahaaa~ morning? Ok still can be considered. Now still xx:xx when I started to write this. I am awake already after about more than 8 hours being like teddy on bed. Ahaha,, previously as I was about a Matriculation student, I used to sleep late just because of assignments and study. Not more than that. Today? Hahaha. Life is unexpected. Tak kesah la. Actually last night a bit late  because I accompany my dearest roommate study. Hahaha,, But then still can't afford to stay any longer. Cannot stand dear. So early this morning, I can see she wake up, and get prepared for her ETHNICS paper today. Good luck, sayang. My doa with you. But this not exactly what am I gonna mumble here. It about people around me.

You guys sometimes make me sick. I know I am neither perfect. Far away to be, kan Ana? T__T
But Allah have granted me with people whom also always be with me no matter what happen. Insya-Allah.
I have mama, baba, abang, and siblings, bestest friend ever, and still have YOU too. I don't care how people judge me. And if you brave enough, talk about it face to face. I have no doubt about you are going to condemn me. In fact, I am being very grateful, people.

I am no hear about everything so much, I have no see what are exactly face they wanna make to me, I am no hurt about what they gonna talk bad about me, but I knew. Because, well hellloooo~ I am also a part of society, so I knew.

Then people might ask, "If you knew already why you still being so stubborn?"
"Errrkkk...Guys,,,if I am doing something wrong, correct me, not condemn me, ok?"

And for some other reason,
"Allah tak jadikan sesustu tanpa sebab, kan?"

Ok, I'll try to flow with the stream. May Allah protects me.
*What ever I do, I have my own principle in life. I have Islam to bring along. I have Allah whom watch me for whatever I do."
Alhamdulillah :))

the sunrise didn't promise the mood =_=''

salam,
hah, this gonna be the third? Who cares after all? Neither me nor you ? (is there) it is not a crime by the way, Is it weirdo if some get to sleep almost by 3.40 am, then wake up by 5 already, yeah, once when it was about 4 years ago, but today is about today, keep out fighting for what is ahead, gambatte, yeah, I am strong enough by any , ( do wish me so), heard some says, Yeah, I will, ( happily to hear), no one ever thought how am I gonna through all this, come on, plus, this is just a part of life, oh, mama now is watching Prima Tv (i guess)

Bismillah,

Kami ucapkan kepadaNya, 

Kalimah suci,

Membesarkan, Keagungan Illahi semuga,

..... (ta ingat plak)

Alzheimer lah, huhuhu (tolong!) jangan, ssh nak hafal Organic Chemistry nanty, huhuhu,

New spirit Far, today, gonna out with Atiq, nak lari lari Ampang for awhile, :))) 

 

 

best friend ever:)

salam,

it is going to be the second post for today, I'm glad, and happy . Thanks Allah for this gift. 

A friend like you.

Muhd Sharif Abd Rahim :)

I owe you the past,

time machine, please!

i'm so touched by those words,
may I have Doraemon or time machine?
no? ain't it?
shivering right now, but actually
I still miss you:)
b.m.h.t

the way i am:(

hello~~~~
aku rasa sangat2 lah, annoyed pada semua benda mungkin, though back about what is going on,
aku just hated much about most things around, why can't just be the way it used to be, don't make
it just like what ur heart want to, really truly amazingly ANNOYING, so what?? i loved much the
situation , the mood of study, the of err.. ahhh... alright, HE is gonna make IT great, so would i,
then after this, i'm gonna grab my stationary and all the mood from HIM as well, (even thought that HE is not study) nevermind, i will, the UPS is really just aroung the tic toc, so fasten everything,

"barangsiapa yang mencari redha allah atas kemarahan manusia nescaya allah cukupkan baginya, dan barangsiapa mencari redha manusia atas murkanya Allah, nescaya allah akan sempitkan baginya"
(just now i really figured it out, Alhamdulillah:))

hard feeling:(

salam:)

i dunno, i might say that:

girl, i dunno if i might say this,

what r u tryn' to do?

obiviously,

please do cover and try to hide what u're feeling,

its called JIHAD!

i thought u knew.

am i getting jealousy?

NO!!!

oh Allah, do protect me,

the only what i do really seek from this journey

just YOUR only REDHA.

do strengthen this heart.

i may, but when this iman i have,

i wanna always flee away from this.

042.011 (He is) the Creator of the heavens and the earth: He has made for you pairs from among yourselves, and pairs among cattle: by this means does He multiply you: there is nothing whatever like unto Him, and He is the One that hears and sees (all things).

[ASY-SYURA']

[eyh, beware of ur friendship, knows the limits:DD]

keep on far! do be a strong women. not the one who just like that:)

May Allah blessed you, Farhana

*p/s i'm always being so much grateful for having such  great buddies whom can laugh and cry together. even we're diff by own thoughts, but we are one, thanks to all friend for being so much nice to me, even we do make up wif lots of fights, i do love you all, no exception. and the bestest for u guys, i'll never forget you in every pray.

Insya-Allah.

mate? :)

alkisah...mate?
a : sape mate kau tueh? nak kenal?
b : huh? kenapa kau ta pernah ad mate ka?
a : kawan?
b : iyelah, kao ingat ap? BF?
si A hanya mampu tersenyum. ni yang ak nak bebel jap nyh. ak memang tak pernah ada BF atau juga dikenali dengan nama penuhnya BOYFRIEND. i mean, pakwe lah, kalau stakat bofprend saje, sgt2 ramai...oppsss. ramai lg kwn pompuan..he3 back to the topic..aiyk???topic??
ada ke? he3 ok2,

q:best k ad BF?
a:ak jawab ek, mungkin best, tapi izinkan aku berbongkak jap. ak ta pernah teringin nak ada boyfriend. sbb? sng je, ak takutkan Allah. insya-Allah. (maafkan sy tuan and puan)

q:habis? kamu takde perasaan ke?
a: soklan ke nyh? mestilah ade, tapi lain perasaan dan nafsu. kebanyakn antara kita bernafsu. bukan memang bernafsu. betul? sebab tu lah bley smpai couple2 nyh.

q:kau tak pernah ke minat2? usha2?
a: aku kan ladies (n_n) mesty lah ade nyer, tapi secara jujurnya pernah hanya seorang saje. (bak kate kwn ak, biar benar? spanjang 18 thn aku hidup). tapi itulah kenyataan. nak kate mamat tu ensem? biase je. baik? nakal (dh name laki) habis? lelaki biasa yg tak perfect. aku minat kerana bile ak ad problem sng je jawapan die. bayakkan zikir n ingat allah (same je en?) kerana agamanya. [keNAPA PNJANG JAWAPAN KAU]

Q:bile? skrang ap jadi?
a : dari awal f3 till now? merepek! skarang tade ap2 sampai bile, dh kate minat je, mane ad ap2.

soal jawab oleh seorang mate yang agak rapat ngan aku. ak un have no idea napelah die tanye soalan yang takan masuk xm.hehehe


tapi bagi aku, kalau orang lain sibuk banyak giler pengalaman ngan Bf die ke hape? dating? luah2 perasaan, bagi aku aku ada ramai kawan untuk aku buat benda yang sama.
eleyh cakap je apa un (blgak nyer kao far,)

1. surat-menyurat?
hahaha, aku pernah lah bagi surat kat GF aku sbbkan ak terlalu sygkan friendship kitorang.

2.gaduh2?
slalu je dlu, jangan pelik, jeles2 un ada, asal aku mngendeng ngan yang lain, jap agi dia un mula lah buat yang sama. ak jeles! tapi itu hak die, nak halang un ta boleh..T-T

3.pujuk-memujuk?
hehehe rindu r plak saat itu, aku pura2 answer phone kat tangga, sorang kawan aku datang
R: kau gaduh ngan A? kau marahkan die ?
A: entahlah... (macam nak tak nak)
R:kalau dia datang nak intak maaf? kau maafkan?
A:tengoklah

jap agi, aku toleh je, "FAr!! ak nak intak maaf"
rindu giler lah, geram gak r sebab pehal nak guna orang tengah segale, tapi tak pe. n_n

sekarang kami memang berkawan baik. n sangat baik. semua orang pun tak sempurna begitu juga GF aku nyh, tapi mak aku kate.

"kalau orang tu buat salah dan kau rasa buruk sikapnya tu,

 bencilah perangainya (hanya dengan hati yg dalam) bukan

dengan membenci dirinya. hatta orang miskin yang kusut masai

 sekalipun. bencilah keadaannya yang fakir itu, bukan dirinya.

kerana kalau kau benci dirinya, bermakna kau benci kepada yang

menciptakannya"

"berkawan dengan semua kerana ia silaturrahim

dan Allah cinta pada

yang suka bersilaturrahim (ikut syariah)

bukan kerana sesuatu"

semua tu memang benar. anad insya-Allah aku akan pegang sepanjang aku berkawan, berteman , bersahabat dengan sesiapa.

walau apa-apa un ak masih respect kat sape2 yang couple, just korunk sume pandai2lah jage diri masing.cuma lebey baik kalau menjauhi kan? aku un tada lah nak marah-marah orang yang bercouple. cume tayahlah samapi over n buatsume mate yang memandang macam nak campak je korunk jauh2...maaf...

n enjoylah hidup korunk selagi diberi peluang dan nikmat kehidupan olehNya.amin...

thanks:)

wah!!! uwuuuu..... (mengeluh jap)
hehehe..ak sangat gumbira senarnya, sebab??? hehehe ak dapat date ngan gf ak, hahaha sangat happy weyh, dia dtg senarnya nak buat keje apa tah, tapi end ngan kuar jalan2 ngan mak aku and die un balik lewat malam...aha padan muka kau JIRA hehehe, maaf lah tapinya. apa2 un, thanks sangat, ak eppy oh, mak aku un happy, tah lah, ko ngan mak aku macam sekepala je aku tengok. bagus r.
till then, jap ag ak bwat pos lain plak. (tamaknye kau FAr)
n_n (symbol nyh memngingatkn ak pada someone) imy:)

this song i'll dedicate to all my friend whom always give another chance every after each, thanks and i'm sure i'll never forget it. especially the one whi'd gave a LOVE LETTER before.

by: kana

Arigatou

Kimi ga ite kurete hontou yokatta yo

Donna toki datte itsumo

Waratte irareru

Tatoeba, hanarete itemo nannen datte mo

Zutto kawaranai desho

Watashitachi Best Friend

Suki dayo, daisuki dayo

Konna osoi jikan ni gomen ne

Hitori ja seppatsu matte kita no

Kimi no koe sukoshi kiketara

Ganbareru

Nande mo uchiake rareru

Mama nimo ienai koto mo zenbu

Dareyori mo wakatte kureru

Ureshii toki wa jibun no koto mitai ni

Yorokonde kurete

Dame na toki wa chanto shikatte kureru sonzai

Arigatou

Kimi ga ite kurete hontou yokatta yo

Donna toki datte itsumo

Waratte irareru

Tatoeba, hanarete itemo nannen datte mo

maaf lah, bear nih agak seksi, smalam g GULATIS terlupa nk blikn die sutera kat sane.. (wahahaha)

 

 ( English )

Thank you

I’m glad that you’re here

No matter the time

I can always smile

No matter how many years pass while we’re away from each other – Nothing will have changed

We’re Best Friends

I love you, I really love you

I’m sorry for waiting so long to say this

I was driven into a corner alone

When I hear your faint voice

I felt like I could make it

I can tell you anything

Even things I can’t tell my mom

You understand better than anyone

When I’m happy

you’re just as happy for me

And you’re the one to scold me when I’m wrong

Thank you

I’m glad that you’re here

No matter the time

I can always smile

p/s alahai, maaf lah, asyik cakap ape2 je mesty ak gune NARUTO, he3, bg aku cter nyh sgt lengkap n sesuai giler ngan jiwa ak, tapi ak tanak la friendship yang totally irony and tragic like this. i want the used to be but still some kind of excitement. hahaha, rindu kat kwn2 yg slalu ak pinjam or kasi pinjam komik and CD...paan, zul, farah, radhi, sharif dan WANI

*note that:this post untuk wan nur zaleha: hahahahaha