unknown...???!!! never know.

salam,to my only self..guess so, today is...25th of July 2010 and the day was somepart in October or September 2006... it's been very long moment. but somehow i'm glad to be what a part of life that depends on fate. once everything just dont want me to say YES even i want to. somehow the fate already made me say YES even if i dont want to, may Allah make it easy for me, i believe and hold tight for this holly quran said

 Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: "We believe," and will not be tested.

 And We indeed tested those who were before them. And Allah will certainly make (it) known (the truth of) those who are true, and will certainly make (it) known (the falsehood of) those who are liars, (although Allah knows all that before putting them to test).

ayat 2 dan 3 surah al ankabut

or else sometimes if we wish to have that and never get the chance dont we ever thought bad about Allah. Allah is the creator. Allah knows every single thing that you never know.
last but not least:

"Ya Allah tuhan yang maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang, kau lindungilah aku dari sebarang godaan dunia yang akan merosakkan diriku kelak, robbi yassir wala tuassir"

-amin-